Death Cab for Cutie

Song by them called "Your Heart is an Empty Room" on their album Plans. I like this song because it speaks to the discontentment had by people especially in this era of wealth and plenitude. We venture on this epic chase for contentment (truth) that when misguided results in unsatiated confusion. Many view the grass as greener than their present situation but when they get to the grass you see it isn't that satisfying. Also, independence and individuality in our culture is becoming smug loneliness. Here goes:

Home's face: how it ages when you're away
Spring blooms and you find the love that's true
But you don't know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago

And all you see is where else you could be,
when you're at home,
There on the street,
are so many possibilities to not be alone

The anticipation...

Is killing me. Me and my wife are two days past our due date to have our daughter. It could happen at any moment at any place. I am learning two things from this. One, I am one impatient mofo. The old adage, "God knows what you need when you need it" is so hard to believe at this point. My view of God, Who He is, His timing above my will is being stretched like never before. I am realizing that I want a God that works for me, that fits into my schedule. That's not how He does things. "He does what He pleases" - that's taking on a whole new meaning for me. Second, trusting this timing is pleasing to Him. I want to please Him but often don't know how to. This seems to me an instance to do so. Trust seems to be a commodity these days. It doesn't come without strings attached. I have zero control on this one. Last, I can't imagine what it will be like to hold that little 6 or 7 pounder. One day soon I can see my asking for her trust when she can't she or understand and I hope to be reminded of this very monument.